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... remember how you asked me what is the most "real me"?

And I answered that it was between two faces.

That's this one. And Arkham Raven.

So even "The Fool" only can apply to this face.

And it's not strictly "all of me", since that would also include Arkham Raven.

[. . . so confusing, he thinks. and yet. . . it also makes sense. perhaps Edamura doesn't associate the shards of his multi-faceted self with different names like Smith does. but he is still an individual with many faces, isn't he? there is a piece of him that is honest and genuine, and a piece of him that tricks and lies. another piece that would never hurt or kill. . . and yet, some piece still pulled the trigger on his father. as Raven had so dutifully reminded him in the wake of their "test of courage". . .]

[he would not be himself without a single one of those fragments]

[. . .]

Is there anything that does encompass "all of you?" Miskatonic Smith, Arkham Raven, and every single thing in between?

[that is the question, isn't it?

and Makoto hasn't asked after the third component... but it is included in this answer.]

There is a certain title. "Lord".

But more importantly, it is what that title presides over.

Mysteries.

[Lord of Mysteries, that is.]

But nothing that can be said in this place. I haven't... found anything suitable.

[what is the Lord of Mysteries? that's the question he wants to ask]

[he doesn't, if only because there is a more important sentiment for him to express, here]

. . . just because you haven't found it yet doesn't mean you never will.

I mean. . . if you want to, that is.

[this is the smile of It's Definitely More Complicated Than Even What You Know Now, but he doesn't address that.]

To get to this point was already a struggle, so. I've been taking my time with it.

Is the current arrangement no good?

[a small huff]

It's fine, actually. Especially if you like it.

You don't have to rush into anything that doesn't feel right, Smith.

I know.

And choosing the right name... or even the right face, to encompass something like the Lord of Mysteries when there's still some unsettled areas... of course it is something that will take time.

[. . . hm]

Who is the "Lord of Mysteries" supposed to be, anyway?

... that is the contested point.

The "what" is easier to explain.

That role as a Pillar, as a Great Old One of the gods, as the Dominator of Spiritual Worlds... that is the Lord of Mysteries.

So like. . . the god above all gods.

[that is how he is understanding it]

And you're vying for that title?

Technically, I've already obtained it.

[... but there is a pause.

a hesitation.]

There is an aspect of the Pathways that I haven't explained as clearly.

[if it's a title he has already obtained then why is it contested??]

[. . . perhaps Smith will answer that question shortly]

Yeah? What aspect?

[he is. going to sit on the couch now, setting the book down in his lap]

The origins of it. The reason why I said the Tarot was retro-fitted to it.

It's because... the 22 Pathways are all... just pieces of the Primordial God who created everything. There is also something called the Convergence of Characteristics. These pieces are constantly seeking ways to come together, in other words.

The higher one goes, the more they have to contend with the consciousness of that being.

The Lord of Mysteries, along with The God Almighty and The Mother Goddess of Depravity, are not just Pillars, but the first two are halves of that original being. So their influences and consciousnesses are much more pronounced.

When I ascended to Lord of Mysteries... I had to take time to ensure my humanity wasn't completely overrun immediately. The Evernight Goddess and a few others... my Tarot Club... they helped with that.

That is also why... you must not conflate the two faces. But at the same time, they are both "me". The one with that title of Lord of Mysteries.

[... that is probably a lot to take in, so. just. letting Makoto process this now.]

[plops onto the couch right next to Smith, slumping back against the cushions. it takes him a few long moments of silence to process all of this, and when he is finished. . . for once, he doesn't have any follow up questions]

[just some cheeky commentary]

Dude. . . that's so much responsibility.

You really need a vacation.

[can gods take vacations]

[... somehow was expecting ALL THE QUESTIONS.

so he mostly.

sinks back against the couch.]

I would love to have a vacation, in fact.

With good food.

[LET HIM. BE LAZY.]

[maybe he's tired of asking questions]

One day.

The universe can't keep you as its chew toy forever.

[oh but it can is the existential horror of it all.]

Mm... that's true.

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