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[please hold...]

Smith&Raven: how do you mean "half my insides"?
Smith&Raven: you were missing pieces of yourself and only part of you is in that body?

marshmallow:ok so
marshmallow: around a week ago i almost killed one of my classmates and yoshiki was upset
marshmallow: he tried to kill me but obviously that didnt work
marshmallow: so i took half of myself out so i couldnt kill people as easily
marshmallow: i gave it to yoshiki and hes been holding onto it but i guess now its here
marshmallow: so im wondering if i should just try putting it back in

Smith&Raven: if you put it back, will you berserk?
Smith&Raven: what I mean is, if you berserk, I will have to deal with you responsibly.
Smith&Raven: and I'd rather not have to deal with the mess.

marshmallow: no no
marshmallow: well probably not i dont actually know for sure
marshmallow: but actually ive had a harder time controlling myself after i took it out sooooooooo
marshmallow: also its not like im your responsibility or anything so dont worry about that

Smith&Raven: you're using the name I gave you, therefore, my responsibility
Smith&Raven: if you do insist on replacing it, then I'd suggest having someone on standby in case you do berserk
Smith&Raven: preferably someone sturdy enough to deal with what you may do
Smith&Raven: I don't really expect you not to go through with it because in my experience, pieces of the whole will seek being completed
Smith&Raven: just also, you may come to realize that you might have changed between when you removed it from yourself and when you replace it
Smith&Raven: will you be able to maintain yourself if you're whole again?

marshmallow: i can just get a different name if thats a problem
marshmallow: as for all the rest
marshmallow: i dont know?
marshmallow: no idea if its even possible to fix it
marshmallow: i kind of have no idea how i work lol

Smith&Raven: would you like me to perform a bit of divination to see if the outcome may go well?

marshmallow: is that a thing u can do 😮😮😮
marshmallow: damn go for it man

Smith&Raven: divining things can be interfered with, to a degree
Smith&Raven: but Fate and I have a certain understanding, so I can at least give you an indication if it might be bad for you

[what about other people? well, yeah, but actually more worried about eldritch being right now

brb flipping a coin.]

Smith&Raven: positive outcome
Smith&Raven: there is still a risk, but it's manageable.

marshmallow: cool
marshmallow: thats good to know
marshmallow: should i get a different name tho

Smith&Raven: are you unhappy with Marsh?

marshmallow: no its great
marshmallow: but if it means its your problem if i do something bad
marshmallow: thats not great

Smith&Raven: I said responsibility, not problem
Smith&Raven: and besides which, I can simply not involve myself whenever I choose
Smith&Raven: I just also choose to involve myself

marshmallow: why

Smith&Raven: it helps

marshmallow: ???????

Smith&Raven: Arkham Raven is a name for only certain pieces of me.
Smith&Raven: Miskatonic Smith is another name for other certain pieces of me.
Smith&Raven: there was a name that was the foundation of the thing I am now, but I can't remember it.
Smith&Raven: there was also a name for the collective whole of what I am, but I can't remember it.
Smith&Raven: things are very tenuous for me, so doing what I know what that foundation and what that whole may do based off of that is what I can do for now.
Smith&Raven: and that person or entity is someone or something that would involve himself.
Smith&Raven: it's actually quite a selfish thing, so I apologize if you're uncomfortable with it.

Edited 2025-12-30 05:50 (UTC)

marshmallow: i dont really understand
marshmallow: but if it helps you feel more like yourself i wont fight u on it or anything
marshmallow: doesnt make me uncomfortable either
marshmallow: but also there is a real chance i may end up taking someones soul or something and it will be a real mess
marshmallow: jsyk

Smith&Raven: if I tell you to avoid doing that to certain people, can you make the attempt?
Smith&Raven: or at the very least, bear in mind I will take action if they are harmed.

marshmallow: i mean ill be trying not to do it to anyone
marshmallow: sometimes its just a bit hard
marshmallow: cant always keep my true colours from showing
marshmallow: but if you want me to try extra hard with some people i will

Smith&Raven: try extra hard with them. I cannot guarantee my own response if something happens to them
Smith&Raven: Miss Eowyn. Miss Foxglove. Miss Dove.

[there's a long pause, long enough that maybe there is no response coming at all]

[... wait.]

Smith&Raven: they're the only 3 here who were in the place I was in before
Smith&Raven: we were in that place for 3 months
Smith&Raven: and I hope you are not thinking something untoward...?

marshmallow: i would never think anything untoward 😏
marshmallow: good for you dude good for you

Smith&Raven: please get your teenaged brain meats out of the gutter
Smith&Raven: but do take what I said seriously

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